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Saturday, April 10, 2010

Love bears all things…

I am a writer. I write when I am happy. I write when I am sad. I write as therapy to help me cope with knee buckling grief. This blog is my notepad. I have always said that I began this blog as a document of my life. To have anyone read it is just icing on the cake.
008_158150037 For those of you who read Decor To Adore regularly then you know that it is generally a happy and positive place. In the midst of my grief I have not been writing my full feelings because I didn’t want to be a downer. I have also been having conversations with God as to why I currently seem to be standing smack dab underneath a cloud of doom and gloom.
He has answered.
It is because I am strong. It is because I have the ability to see beauty in the midst of heart wrenching pain. It is because I can find the words to convey my grief and words to convey true LOVE.
He has answered that there is someone out in the big wide web world who may not be as strong and they need my help in coping.
So I am writing. As always, it is my readers choice to read what is written or to choose to move on. 
So today, I wanted to share the reason I was able to get out of bed.
img246 Twelve years ago, on April 11th, I held hands with a man and promised to love and cherish him forever. Only he can tell you if I have lived up to my promise. I can tell you that he has lived up to his.
This man recently drove 12 hours one way so that he could stand beside me as I watched my dear mother be buried. The next day he drove the 12 hours back home. This car trip also included two passengers ~an 8 year boy and an active dachshund. Truly amazing!
“Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.” 1 Corinthians 13:7
LOVE NEVER FAILS.
Laura
(I have left the comments on but I hope that you continue to understand that at this time I am unable to respond. I am not quite strong enough and am currently able to only focus on my family and schoolwork.)

32 comments :

Jen T said...

I'm praying for you. God bless you.

The French Bear said...

Laura, I am so touched by your post......I am glad that you chose to share and write your feelings. I have been down, missing my Mom and my sister and just generally blue....reading your post and feeling your pain, I just want to give you a big hug and say I am here if you need anything.
Your husband is truly a wonderful man, that is why God has put you two together.
Please know that you are in my heart and I am thinking of you...
Hugs,
Margaret B

marty (A Stroll Thru Life) said...

The Lord is always faithful to hear us and to answer our prayers. I know that He is with you. God Bless. Hugs, Marty

Marydon Ford said...

Laura, sorry of your Mother passing but she is sitting at the feet of Jesus. Take your time to let the pain heal, sweetie. We are here ...

You are very blessed with a wonderful DH, your wedding picture is awesome, I so love your gown.

TTFN ~Hugs in love, Marydon

Blondie's Journal said...

My condolences on the death of your mother, Laura. But how blessed you are to have such a perfect man by your side.

xoxo
Jane

Becky@Beyond The Picket Fence said...

Happy Anniversary--I am glad that you know the support and love of a good man, the way God intended it to be.

Teri said...

Thank you for this post. :) Thinking of you and your family.

The Boston Lady said...

Knowing what a wonderful person your husband is firsthand, I am not surprised that he is your strength during this very difficult time and everyday. Although we haven't seen him in many years, we well remember the fine young man who enlisted in the military and accepted all the risks and responsibilities that went along with that decision.

How wonderful it must have been for you to have him, your son and Rudy show up and support you during such a hard time. I know my husband, although not related to yours by blood, would have done the exact same thing. I never would have made it through the last ten years without his support and unending patience and love. They are more brothers than I thought.

Life has dealt you some really tough blows, Laura, but you are that strong person that you mentioned before. I've always admired your optimistic nature and I know that has probably taken a bit of a holiday lately. It will be return, in the meantime, your family will be your rock just as you have been theirs so many times.

Better days are ahead.

Tamara Jansen said...

What a beautiful post. I always find that difficult times help us focus on our blessings.

Kathy's Red Door Welcome said...

What a blessing to have a man of character beside you through this most difficult time. I don't know what I would have done without my Mr.Honey when I lost my sweet Mama three years ago. I'm sending you prayers for continued strength and for strong arm to surround you when you do not feel so strong.

Terri said...

Sending warm thoughts your way.... My only advice is to take it one day at a time and give in to the grief when it overwhelms you. There will be good days and awful days but eventually your heart will begin to heal. The depth of your grief reveals the depth of love you felt for your mom.

Doctora said...

Beautiful words, beautiful expression toward a husband, beautiful dress, beautiful photo, beautiful strip of yellow items across the top of your blog, Beautiful God to have given us so much, including hardship to endure. I don't like it, but I understand it's HIS way. Bless you. God speed your healing.

LiLi M. said...

Congrats on your anniversary with that special man. In times like this you really got to know each other and appreciate him even more, hugs, LiLi

Julie Tucker-Wolek said...

{{{hugs}}} to you dearest laura!! I loveeeeeeeeeee that you still find beauty...and happy anniversary! Beautiful photo of your wedding! :):):):):):):):):):):):)

shirley said...

Dear Laura,
May GOD continue to hold you close during this sad time. I have found this poem that I read often and now that Mothers Day is soon upon us, I take it and read it to her as I put flowers on her grave. I send it with heartfelt kindness.

If Roses grow in Heaven,
Lord pick a bunch for me,
Place them in my Mothers arms and tell her they're from me.
Tell her that I Love Her, and when she turns to smile, place a kiss upon her cheek and hold her for a while.
Because remembering her is easy, I do it every day, but there is an ache within my heart that will never go away.
Author Unknown.

Deanna said...

Dearest Laura,
My thoughts are with you and may God comfort you all the way.
d from homehaven in Kansas

scargosun said...

wish I'd started back sooner. I think it is the sign of a true strong spirit when whey can find something, anything to help them move to the next moment in time. Keep that spirit alive with each of those 'somethings', string them together to get you through.

Tales From My Empty Nest said...

I don't expect you to respond right now Laura, but I do think you will benefit from reading everyone's comments. I hope they will in some small way, help you through this time of grief and hardship in your life. You are certainly blessed to have such a wonderful and loving husband. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! Love & blessings from NC!

Lisa said...

I'm so glad you have such a sweet husband to lean on during this time of your life. I know your blog is a blessing and a comfort to someone out there who is going through the same thing.
I'll be holding you up in prayer.:)

SPLENDEROSA said...

Laura, each one of us who reads your words understands completely the sadness you are feeling. You are, indeed, fortunate to have a loving family surrounding you. Take good care of yourself, and when the 11th comes, celebrate that you two are together & have a son. Your wedding gown is divine and I can feel the kind of person you are from this photo. With love, Marsha

Karen said...

Laura, you are blessed to write what you feel and do it so well. I hope at this point in the weekend you have gotten most of the work done so that this week you can possibly start to focus on what is in front of you instead of what is behind. I am cheering for you...I hope you can hear me! Hugs, Karen

Melissa Wertz said...

So sorry to hear of your loss Laura.

MarySue said...

My admiration for your continued teaching by example through your grief. May you find the blessings you seek.

BlueCastle said...

Such a lovely picture. I am glad you have such a wonderful husband to walk through this valley with you. May the God of peace give you comfort.

Bettyann said...

Dear Laura..you are such a loving and sweet person. My message is to give just caring and love to you from me....I don't need a response..take care..

Craftymoose Crafts said...

We've always been told that God gives us only what we can bear. He also gives us someone strong & caring besides us to help with what we cannot.

Gail said...

I'm so very sorry for the loss of your Mother, I lost mine in 2003 and still miss her every day...suspect I always will. And I also know that my dh would do anything to make my life easier...anything.
That's what true love is all about. Consider yourself blessed...which I know you already do.

Lana K. W. Austin said...

I am so sorry, TRULY sorry, for your loss, but I rejoice with you in having a husband who has stood with you, even in grief!
MANY blessings to you,
Lana

Joyce's Journey said...

Once again, a truly beautiful post. Your husband sounds like a wonderful man. Your wedding picture is beautiful and that dress is gorgeous. You look stunning. Ah, the pages of our life.

Carolyn said...

Laura, you are in my prayers...I had lost a loved one to death several years ago. I was so unprepared for the pain...I am praying!

Hugs,
Carolyn

Annesphamily said...

I am praying for you! Life can be cruel but somehow there is always some kind of light to brighten our path as we start to heal from the incredibly pain and grief we feel. You are well loved. Always remember that. Hugs Anne

fairfieldhousenj.com said...

Laura,

I somehow missed this beautiful post. What a lovely couple you and Mr. Decor make.
I'm so happy to know that you have the love and friendship to support and see each other through bad times.

Your Friend,
Deborah